Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Look at this face! You wouldn't know she is a bully.

Good thing I'm cute.
Ahh my sweet Emma. I always knew that she'd be a leader since her mom and dad are. What I didn't know is that she would also be a bully!

Sweet pea is going through a tough phase right now I guess. She has gotten past the hitting herself or others which is great. Now she is on to bullying her friends. Her BFF Morgan was over on Sunday and rather than being excited to play with her friend, she hid her toys. The girls stand on stools to play with the alphabet letters on the garage door and suddenly Morgan is crying. I look and Emma has taken her stool and put her own stool away. Nice. Now in all honesty this is probably because 1. she didn't take a nap and 2. it's her house and  her toys. I'm hoping that if the situation were reversed that Morgan would do the same but I may be kidding myself.

She's also struggling with some separation anxiety at school. Worse than we've ever encountered  before. Every morning Mike drops her off and she clings to him pitifully. Toys, other kids and the teachers can't calm her down. A teacher actually had to walk her down the hall so that Mike could leave the other day. And this is the week that she is supposed to transition into the early preschool room though I don't think she has just yet.

Amid all of this, Emma busted out her cutest move ever. Just as we were up to HERE with her on Sunday, she said "scano." Mike and I looked at her and asked her to repeat it. She did. Nana and Pop-pop were on the phone so they heard it to. I said is your name Emma Toscano and she shook her head and said Emma Scano. SOOOOOO Cute. Of course she knows this because we are constantly calling her by her full name when she is in trouble! LOL.

Ahh kids they sure are funny and a good thing they are cute too!

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Perspective

I look at my blog every day as I am reading others and have been feeling guilty for not posting recently.It isn't that I have nothing amusing to say about Emma. I do. She's a holy terror these days. Smacking teachers. Smacking herself. Banging her head on the floor when she's mad. Throwing a major fit at Cici's pizza last week, a place we thought we'd be safe to have a meal out. It's a challenging time to be a parent.

Still, my heart has been full for another little girl lately. I've written about Kaitlyn and her mom Deanna before. On Jan. 13 her family got the news that her lungs had begun to fill with fluid and then a day or two later word came that her liver was failing. It's only a matter of time before her sweet life on Earth comes to an end. Every day and every night I say a prayer for her and for her family. Every day I pray for a miracle. When I look at photos of Kaitlyn, I see Emma.

In coping with the grief that I have been feeling for a child I have actually never met but love dearly, I have googled things like "what happens at the end of life" and "near death experiences." I wanted to find some sort of comfort that God is out there I guess. I feel powerless to help Kaitlyn and her family. I have cried hysterically on my bathroom floor so that no one could hear me. I have asked every one of my friends on Facebook  to pray.

Many things have come out of Kaitlyn's journey. For me probably the biggest thing is perspective. Emma's antics are just the antics of a typical two year old. I am blessed to be able to complain about her tantrums, privileged to be able to brag about her accomplishments and lucky to be able to enjoy her hugs and kisses.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

I am not a Whole Foods mother

 Before I had a child, I had a picture of the type of mother I'd be. Probably we all do I guess but if you are like me, reality is not at all what you pictured. I pictured myself as the type of mother who was overprotective, jumped every time my child fell, cooked lots of different veggies and only served organic food to my sweet child. I would never wipe food off and give it to my child after she threw it on the floor nor would I allow my child to watch too much TV. In reality, Emma lives on about 5 different foods and has eaten her fair share of floor food.

As I was leaving Whole Foods yesterday I realized I am so not a Whole Foods mother. Daddy went go kart racing so Emma and I went to the Children's Museum in Short Pump where we frolicked and played for an hour before heading over to Whole Foods for milk. Daddy likes the taste of Whole Foods milk the best so off we went. Now I will stop right here and tell you I never venture to Short Pump let alone Whole Foods and especially not on a  Saturday. This earrned me a WTF was I thinking. The store was absolutely mobbed. Yuppies and trendsetters were taking up every aisle, just staring at the many organic and wholesome things. Mainly they were waiting in line for the free samples and drinking wine at the wine bar...oh and buying bread. Emma at this point was so over stimulated and ready to go  home that I should have known better than to even go in the store. We were going to buy some veggies but the price and the crowd and Emma's patience prevented this. So off we go to get some milk. I quickly put three gallons of whole milk in the cart and move on to the skim milk where an old couple is literally just staring at the massive selection of milk. Of course, they are right where I need to be. I quickly give Emma a sample of a potato chip to munch while I politely ask the old couple if I could get to the milk. Grab three gallons of skim milk (and some rather odd looks) and move on. I now have six gallons of milk in my cart. People around me are looking at me like I'm crazy or I am keeping a secret about an upcoming blizzard. We try to go down the aisle with the kid breakfast stuff. I grab  a $4 box of Abby Cadabby organic oatmeal and put it in the basket. Emma demands Elmo oatmeal instead but won't give up the box of Abby oatmeal. A fit ensues and we end up with the Abby oatmeal as people continue to look at me with scorn. I might add that I do notice that no one else in the store has a toddler crying her head off and throwing things  out of the cart.

We hit up a few more aisles for overpriced food that I hope Emma will eat but know that she won't. Pick up some meat which is totally worth the price and snag a few pieces of cheese for Emma to sample while Mommy gets her dinner and daddy's. I try to wait in line for pretzel bread for Daddy but Emma is having no parts of this so we go to check out. Emma throws her blanket on the ground and is trying to get out of the cart. I'm informing her that this is why people use birth control. More looks. The nice cashier asks if I want my meat separate from the rest of the food in the bags. I inform her that I don't care as long as she is fast so that Emma doesn't lose it completely. We pay for our stuff and are out of there.

As I'm driving home I realize that 1. I am not a Whole Foods person or mother. 2. There is a reason that toddlers don't go in public and 3. I am so not the mother I thought I was going to be.

I head home and prepare my dear child a deliciously overpriced organic child bean burrito and fruit. She skips the burrito and eats half the fruit before demanding non-organic cheese and half of my chocolate chip cookie. And I'm okay with that.